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Are You Addicted? Volume 2: Chapter 5 - Back in Their Old Home

Yang Meng and Gu Hai went back to the Police Station and by the time they came out, it was already dark. The scene of the car accident and Bai Luo Yin’s helpless condition kept on playing on Gu Hai's restless mind.

He took out his mobile phone to see a message from Yan Yajing. Nothing more but words of blessings for Gu Hai. Gu Hai was slightly relieved and pleased after he saw the message. He felt that he was not mistaken with Yan Yajing. She is not a simple woman. She has a strong desire to control things, but she is very good at heart.

Early in the morning of the next day, Gu Hai first attended to company matters and went out again. Yan Yajing looked at Gu Hai from a distance. She was already accepting her new reality that his heart could not be hers. How many times would she dream of taking him into her arms, but she had been fooling herself. She already knew what made Gu Hai so worried and in love with Bai Luo Yin for eight years.


Bai Luo Yin got up very early the next morning. He lost much of his sleep last night because of thinking too much about his close encounter with Gu Hai. Bai Han Qi called him and told him about the things at home and about Gu Hai. Bai Luo Yin with his heart pounding took Gu Hai’s school uniforms from his pillowcase. He hugged it and fell asleep with bright daylight coming in from the windows.

As soon as it was getting dark, Bai Luo Yin woke up. He neatly folded Gu Hai’s school uniform and put it back in the pillowcase. He picked up his mobile phone and was slightly disappointed to see not any missed calls. He got up of bed, washed himself, and went to the training field.


Gu Hai drove to the army for the first time after so many years. When Gu Hai came to the entrance of the army, he noticed that the garrison now had a different soldier assigned than when he had stayed in the camp when he was younger. He was more dignified and mysterious.

Gu Hai looked up to observe a group of flying helicopters overhead.

Is Bai Luo Yin in one?

Had not Bai Han Qi told him the truth, he really would not expect him to be so near. Gu Hai drove the car just up to the gate and was stopped by a guard.

“Hello, comrade. Who would you like to talk to?"

"Salute comrade! May I ask if Bai Luo Yin is here?" Gu Hai looked at the window, and the guard looked at the man in front of him.

"Excuse me, why do you want to see Commander Bai? Did you come to visit?"

When he heard ‘Commander Bai’, Gu Hai smiled automatically.

"I am his distant relative, I just came back from abroad and came to see him." Gu Hai perfectly lied.

At first he thought of giving Bai Luo Yin a call but he was worried that once Bai Luo Yin would hear his voice, he would hung up the telephone. Thus, he might as well personally come. Gu Hai had thought a lot of their meeting scenes in his mind.

"Hello, is the Duty Room available? Please inform Commander Bai of a family visit. The visitor will be in the Duty Room."

"Sir, please pull the car aside. I have already informed the duty room." Gu Hai nodded, he pulled the car aside, got off the car and waited at the door.

Since Bai Luo Yin has just finished his training, he went back to the dormitory to wash himself. He would like to go home to ask Bai Han Qi about the matter with Gu Hai yesterday. He still didn’t know how to face Gu Hai. He has just packed up his clothes when the telephone rang, letting him go to the duty room.

Relatives? We don't have any relatives in our family. Could it be that he went to find me in the army?

Bai Luo Yin simply bowed his head, touched his face, picked up his clothes and walked towards the door. Bai Luo Yin touched his pocket and pulled out a phone SIM card. He stopped and looked at the card in his shaking hands. He put it back in his pocket and hurriedly went forward.

Gu Hai was standing at the gate when saw soldier in casual attire coming towards the gate. He knew at first glance that it was Bai Luo Yin. If it wasn't for the guards around, he would have run to him and give him a hug. Bai Luo Yin came to the door and gave a salute to the sentinel. The sentinel gave a salute back.

"Who's looking for me?"

"There's a gentleman at the door," said the sentry, pointing his finger across.

"Anyone here just now?"

"Well, stand guard."! I'll check it out!”


As Bai Luo Yin walked out of the door, he found a brand-new BMW which looked worth a lot of money. He went to the left of the car near the rear when a man suddenly pulled down his arms. Bai Luo Yin’s instinctive reaction was to punch back. He felt a familiar warmth on the palm that touched him and a familiar smell around. He looked up and pushed the man in front of him.

Eight years! Gu Hai was so close to him, after eight years. Bai Luo Yin was so close to him.

"Who asked you to come?" It has been eight years. Why are you bothering me again?" Without waiting for Gu Hai to open his mouth, Bai Luo Yin blurted out even though his heart was aching upon seeing Gu Hai.

"Yin Zi, I can’t let go of you, my heart can’t let you go. Eight years. I've been waiting for you for eight years."

"Gu Hai, we are impossible! Eight years ago, I promised your dad that I would leave far away!" Bai Luo Yin held back the pain in his heart. He knew that he could not let go of Gu Hai, but he did not know how to face him. If he could only do so, he would want to be quiet.

Gu Hai looked at Bai Luo Yin’s face.

"I came to tell you that I'm getting married.” Gu Hai said very seriously while looking at Bai Luo Yin.

Bai Luo Yin's heart was shattered in a sudden. Gu Hai could not feel Bai Luo Yin’s state of mind and he could only gamble this way hoping to open Bai Luo Yin’s heart.

Bai Luo Yin walked to Gu Hai, hugged him tightly and just hissed out the words,  "I bless you." As he could not suppress his own emotions, he turned his back to go.

“Yin Zi, take a good care of yourself." Bai Luo Yin stopped and left. Gu Hai touched his own neck wet with Bai Luo Yin’s tears. His heart was also painful at the moment, but he believed that this brief pain could open Bai Luo Yin’s heart.

"I'm getting married. I'm getting married. I'm getting married…"
The voice of Gu Hai was continuously filling Bai Luo Yin’s head. He's getting married? Gu Hai is getting married? Back to the dormitory Bai Luo Yin grabbed his heart, and crouched down by the door. He fought with Gu Hai together for eight years but he was to get married. His tears could not stop flowing out. These eight years, he would often think of Gu Hai and he would shed tears silently. But that day, he cried so deeply.

Bai Luo Yin took the SIM card and put it into another phone. He opened the mobile phone and it began to ring non-stop as messages come pouring in. He deleted some messages one by one. In addition to payment SMS, there were some messages from Gu Hai.

These years, Gu Hai, in order to ensure that this SIM card would not be canceled, would top it up every month. He would also send a text message everyday. Gu Hai still has not changed his mobile phone number. It was the same mobile number for so many years. His last message was sent last night: “Bai Luo Yin, I must find you."

Bai Luo Yin wiped away his tears, took a shower, got his car keys and went out. Sitting in the car, Bai Luo Yin could not calm his heart. His memory of Gu Hai came flooding his memory. He remembered the day when Gu Hai taught him how to drive.

Bai Luo Yin drove away from the army. Gu Hai's car still there few meters from the gate. Gu Hai could see Bai Luo Yin driving out. He saw Bai Luo Yin’s eyes swollen from crying. He too felt very painful in his heart. Gu Hai hurried into the car and followed him from a distance. Bai Luo Yin looked at the rearview mirror and saw Gu Hai following. Bai Luo Yin smiled coldly and made a quickly turn into a path, and then turned to the main road again throwing Gu Hai off the path.

Gu Hai having lost his track to Bai Luo Yin hammered his fist on the steering wheel mercilessly. He knew very well that Bai Luo Yin would move like a thief (clever). Bai Luo Yin drove aimlessly on the street, watching the city where he had so many memories with Gu Hai. Bai Luo Yin stopped and bought a stick of tanghulu (candied-fruit skewer) and took a small bite. Even though the candied-fruit was so sweet, it seemed a little bit bitter for him. Bai Luo Yin had not eaten since that noon until he met Gu Hai but he barely ate the tanghulu. He was deeply preoccupied and troubled.


Gu Hai was still looking for Bai Luo Yin on endless maze of roads and streets when Yang Meng called him.

"Have you find Yin Zi?""

Gu Hai simply told the story of what happened to Yang Meng.

"Hey! I think you’re really messed up."

"Where are you?"

"I am on duty tonight."

"Get me a bike!"

"Why don't you open a car and look for a bike?"

"It’s convenient to find Yin Zi riding a bike. Hurry up and find me one! I’ll leave the car at home and take a taxi to you!" Gu Hai hung up the phone. He parked the car at home, and went to see Yang Meng.


Bai Luo Yin stood at the doorway of their old home. He touched the cold moist lock of the now abandoned doorway nearing a pending demolition. Memories of him and Gu Hai in this neighborhood came flooding his mind like waves after one another. He remembered the first time that he went fishing with Gu Hai. In order to cheer him up, Gu Hai jumped into the cold water and fetched the fish for him. He remembered that year's Mid-Autumn Festival, Gu Hai suddenly appeared, disrupted all his thoughts and give him that big moon cake with plenty of egg yolks. He remembered the day, when Gu Hai stood very late stubbornly refusing to come inside the house. There were many recollections of him and Gu Hai. For eight years, before he was ready to face him, he would be married. He did not wait for him.


"Hey! What the hell is this car that you looked for? Isn’t it the same as mine." Gu Hai looked at Yang Meng.

"Young master, please go and do your own thing, and take care of it!” If you mess up, see who ends up with you."

Gu Hai smiled at Yang Meng and drove the car out of the police station.

Gu Hai tried to dial the phone.

Bai Luo Yin at that time was leaning against the door with eyes closed. He was soaked in an inexplicable bitterness.

"I'm getting married," said Gu Hai over and over again in his ear. Bai Luo Yin picked up his  phone, he saw a familiar number. Bai Luo Yin hanged the call. Gu Hai dialed the phone again repeatedly every time Bai Luo Yin hang up. Finally, out of impatience Bai Luo Yin answered the telephone.

"Yin Zi!" Gu Hai spoked in a soft voice. Tears again fell from Bai Luo Yin’s eyes.

"You're supposed to be married. What else do you want from me? Please don’t bother me anymore, can't you? Please forget me, Gu Hai, I am wishing you happiness." Bai Luo yin was unable to stop shaking.

"Yin Zi, where are you? I want to talk to you"

"You're getting married. What else do I have to talk to you about?" Bai Luo Yin punched his fist to the front door. Clanging sound reverberated like eternity. He hang up the phone and sat down at the gate, his heart writhing in pain.

At that time, Gu Hai already felt how Bai Luo Yin was feeling. He felt that he had already played with his emotion a bit too much. Out of the blue, Gu Hai decided to drive to Bai Luo Yin’s old home.

Near the entrance of the narrow alley, Gu Hai saw a Jaguar Jeep with a license plate VC-XXXX parked. He knew it was Bai Luo Yin’s car, it was the same car he had seen in the afternoon. But there seemed to be nobody in the car. Gu Hai drove further the alley near the old house.

As he was walking towards the house door, Gu Hai vaguely saw a figure in the dark. He was wearing a sweater with a thin shirt inside. The weather was already cold during this late autumn in Beijing. Gu Hai said in a soft voice, "You! These eight years, and you still don't know how to feel sorry for yourself? Lao Tze (a Chinese philosopher) was no longer here to teach you. Put on your coat. Don't you know it's getting cold?"

Gu Hai looked at both his pain and his joy right in front of him. After eight years, he appeared again. His long wait was not in vain, for he knew that he was still living in this world. They'll meet again someday. It was that day, Gu Hai waited too long. But he blamed himself for today’s trouble, it was only because he wanted to know if he’s still in Bai Luo Yin’s heart.

At that time, Bai Luo Yin was still immersed in the memory of the past, and did not perceive a pair of eyes staring at him in the shadow. He did not know there was someone staring at him not far away. Just as he was about to open the door, he heard a familiar voice. A voice that was enough to let him down.

"Xiao (little) Yin Zi, let’s go home. It is already too late, where have you gone? Did you run around, right?"

Bai Luo Yin's hand stopped, as if time stopped at this moment. Such a familiar voice. Had he been suffering and not eaten for so long that he was already seeing hallucinations? This is the voice of Gu Hai. He was so close to him.

"Impossible. It must be my illusion. At this point, Gu Hai must be with his fiancée." He dared not think about it, but the more he thought of it, the more he cried.

Gu Hai looked at his Bai Luo Yin’s pitiful and sad appearance as he crouch down grabbing and pulling his own hair.

Gu Hai could not take it any longer. He ran towards Bai Luo Yin and hugged him tightly in his arms. A hug thay lasted eight long years.

“Yin Zi, you left me in pain. You made me wait in pain. Yin Zi, I came back! Yin Zi, don't go, don't leave me? I'll love you and will never hurt you. I promise you we'll never part again. Eight years ago, I knew all about it. I guessed it. I will never leave you anymore.”

Bai Luo Yin was still in tears. He could not believe that Gu Hai had been waiting for him for so long. He could not believe that he and Gu Hai would meet again this way after eight years.  He was looking at Gu Hai’s red, misty and crying eyes.

"Gu Hai, is that you? Gu Hai, is that you?" Bai Luo Yin asked repeatedly over and over again.

"It's me, Yin Zi. I am Gu Hai. I am your Gu Hai", Gu Hai answered again and again. The kind of answer that was pleasurable to him as he’d always wanted, because he really can't afford to lose Bai Luo Yin again.

Bai Luo Yin raised his red hands to touch Gu Hai’s face. It’s like touching a long lost treasured possession.

But Bai Luo Yin suddenly pulled back his hand, looked at Gu Hai and shook the tears with his head.

"We cannot be together, Gu Hai. You are getting married, we cannot together, I can not destroy your family, you go! Go back to your fiancée. Don't come and see me again." Bai Luo Yin said while pushing Gu Hai. Gu Hai endured Bai Luo Yin’s push.

Until Bai Luo Yin’s pushing and shouting lost its strength. Gu Hai hugged Bai Luo Yin very tightly.

"Yin Zi, forgive me. I was wrong during the day. I was not sure that you still love me and that you are still waiting for me. That is what I meant to say. Yin Zi, I'm sorry. My Yin Zi, My Yin Zi, I won't leave you anymore, and I won't let anyone of us leave again."

Bai Luo didn't say anything, he just held on tight to Gu Hai.

"Gu Hai, don't leave me. I'm not headstrong! I'll listen to your words!"

Gu Hai's heart was trembling and repeating over and over again.

"Yin Zi, I am, I will always be with you, I will never go."

At that time, Bai Luo Yin was looking that face he yearned for so long. That young, brilliant and handsome face. He kissed Gu Hai deeply. This kiss, Gu Hai and Bai Luo had waited for eight long years - their most passionate and warm kiss in eight years that they seemed to forget that it was already late autumn.

They would never forget each other’s taste and smell. Bai Luo Yin will never forget it. Gu Hai will never forget it. Gu Hai, carried away in his feeling,  hugged Bai Luo Yin very tight. They both felt the warm and tranquility in each other’s arm as they did when they're sleeping together in the past.


  1. Thank you so so much 😃😆😆😆😆 I am so happy right now 😆 You have just made my day with this amazing chapter.😗😗😗 Thanks a million. Can't wait for the next update 😯

  2. 😩😭😭😭 at long last!!!! Can't wait for chapter addicted!!!! Their Love is beautiful!!!

  3. Im so happy! When will you post chapter 6?


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